It is all my fault! I should not have made that call at all. Things might not be as bad as it is now.I just long for a long nice chat with YOU. It has been a long time since we talked. I feel.Not even sure if I will be talking to you tonight. In a nice way that is. Tomorrow, as always when I am in the office, I can never talk to you in peace. I am that supicious of everone and everything I do.After tonight, it will be after a week then you will be back. By then, God knows what would have happened. You know what I mean.I do not want to think of the future. I forbid myself to think of the future. I bluff myself about the future. I just cannot bring myself to face reality.Time and again, the thought of it makes me tear and cry. I really really cannot imagine what will happen the day you leave. How will it be like?All I want is you and only you. Do you know how I feel?What must I suffer this fate? Why am I always on the losing end?
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
11:33 PM